Well, it's been a few days, so how am I doing so far? I went out driving yesterday. It went better than usual. I drove to Jacksonville and back. I tried to remain calm and stay positive and believe that I could do it. There was one incident, however, when I was making a left turn onto a two lane street and forgot to check both ways. Thankfully, my father was in the car and stopped me from going, but it's stuff like that which gets me worried because if it wasn't for him, that could have very well been a crash. I did, however, finally and with much relief make it home. I'm going to keep going, though. I wanted to go out today, but my mother had the car all day. I think I'm going to try to drive in the mornings on the way to RCC. I've driven to the Library before, which is right next to it, so I know it's something that I'm capable of doing.
Unfortunately, I didn't get out this weekend, even though I wanted to. My friend, Sarah, from my French class at RCC, invited me out, but it kind of fell through. I think this is going to be my major stumbling block to happiness, because it's very hard to not internalize it and beat yourself up when your plans fall through or your invitations are not accepted (especially the latter, which has definitely happened to me). In this case, I think it was just a case of bad luck and busyness on the part of her (since we've hung out a couple times before), but it's still a touch disheartening. However, in some good news, my friend Jackson Tegu, designer of The Hydra
and all-around awesome guy, is coming to Ashland on tour with his indie rock group, Google Maps
, tomorrow night, which will be awesome. Also one of those times when I wish I had wheels or that the buses ran later (more the latter, honestly) because cabs are expensive. I'm actually planning on staying at the local hostel because it's probably as cheap and is actually good in a way because I don't have to rush home after the show.
So I've got that tomorrow, possibly something with Sarah on Saturday, I think I'm still invited to her birthday party on Wednesday of next week, and I'm going down to Ashland for Halloween even if I have to go by cab, so in spite of my struggles, I suppose I've at least somewhat succeeded at scheduling more things for myself to do. Unless, of course, I've just jinxed myself and it all falls through. :)